Here I am.

Whew.

I'm back.

Life has changed so very much in the short long month I've been gone. So much that it's hard to wrap my head around it. And no, I'm not pregnant. Yet. And it's okay.

We moved into our beautiful new house and I am learning to let go of my control issues in making people think I have it all together. We have had people come in and out who have seen our still unpacked boxes and messy house. And it's okay.

My life has been and continues to be turned upside down professionally and personally, for reasons I cannot and do not want to discuss. I can vouch for the fact that one day, everything is going smoothly and the next, everything is different. I am walking that road. And it's okay.

I deleted my account on Facebook because I was tired of knowing what was going on in everyone else's life and having my life put out there for the world to see. I'm not planning on joining again anytime soon. It's quite freeing, actually. And it's okay.

I have been clinging to God like my life depends on it... which it does. I have effectively been learning that He will not give me more than I can handle, even when I think I can't handle a bit more. He knows my limits, not me. He has sent women into my life lately from near and far who have built me up, prayed over me and loved me until I think my heart will burst from the combination of sadness and love. It is a bittersweet feeling and one that I have learned from like never before. I've learned that "Christ never allows the hearts of His own to be shattered without excellent reasons and eternal purposes". And it's okay.

I'm okay.

I'm thankful for this refining process, for this beautiful, terrible time of life. Terrible in the sense of what has happened and what has rocked me to the core, but beautiful in that God has been covering me so fully with His hand. I'm also thankful for my blog and for those of you I have met and connected with on a deeper level as a result of this newfangled technology.

I have really missed blogging about funny things, about mundane things, about life in general. I am thrilled to show you all our new home and to continue to share the hilarious things my students say. I'm looking forward to sharing my struggles with you and to being more real than before, but in a more constructive manner.

It's so good to be back.