This week, life as you know it is going to change in one of the biggest possible ways. We are going to welcome your little sister into our family and you're going to become a big brother.
I'm so excited to meet your sweet sister. She has been hoped for, prayed for, and dreamed of for a long time. One thing that Daddy and I desired so much was to give you a sibling and this week, it's going to happen.
However, it is one of the most bittersweet things I could ever imagine. Primarily sweet, but a little bit emotional for your old mom here.
For the past three years, day in and day out, it's been me and you, buddy. I've been so blessed to be able to stay home with you and although we've had plenty of hard days, the wonderful days have outweighed those hard days a thousand times over.
Griffin, you made one of my biggest dreams come true. You made me a mama. The day you were born was the best day of my life beside the day I married your dad. You are my joy boy!
I will never forget the moment they laid you on my chest after you were born. I'd been (stupidly) afraid that I wouldn't love you, that I wouldn't feel connected to you. I was afraid I wouldn't have enough love in my heart for you and your dad, even though they're very different kinds of love. But the very second I saw your face I would have done anything for you. That hasn't changed for one second since March 6, 2011 at 8:33 pm. If anything, it's gotten stronger. God blessed me beyond my wildest dreams when He gave me you.
There is no one I love like I love you right now. You are my buddy, my Bubba Boy, my tiny mouse. You are my only baby right now, but this week, that all changes.
But you taught me something so important, my boy. I'm not afraid this time. I'm not afraid that I won't love and connect with your baby sister. I'm not afraid that I won't have enough love in my heart for you both because you helped to teach me that unconditional love is very, very real. You helped to teach me that my heart can just expand to fit more love.
It may sound basic, but it's true. You have taught me so much. You've taught me how to be your mama and soon, Bubbles's mama. And you have been the most patient, loving, gracious teacher. I have learned so much from you.
We have had a fantastic three years. There is so much I love doing with you. I love to watch you play alone and play with you. I love doing puzzles with you and dancing with you. I love how you love to snuggle and hold my hand.
I love how you love to sing with me in the car. I love your love for music and especially drums. I love how you're so in tune with others and how they're feeling. I love grocery shopping with you. I love how fun and carefree you are. I love that you feel deeply, even though that means we butt heads often.
My sweet boy, it is a pleasure to be your mother. It has been a pleasure to spend the last three years with you, day in and day out. You have made it easy to love being a mama… you've made it easy to love being your mama.
Tonight, I laid in bed with you and you sang me your songs and I started to cry. It's not because I'm sad, but just because it is the end of our era. It's the beginning of a new and super wonderful era, but at the same time, the days of our little duo are coming to an end rather quickly.
You know that this week, I'll go to the "hostibal" and that when we come home, we'll bring your sister with us. You say you know, but I know you don't really know. I've tried to prepare you the best I can, but I think you're going to rock this big brother thing.
I know you have somewhat of an idea that things are going to be different soon because you have never loved me more. I think it will be hard for you to see me giving another little person so much attention. It might take awhile, because you are your mama's boy and we don't love change, but I think we're going to do just fine with this particularly precious change. I cannot wait to see you with your sister. I know you're going to love her and that she will adore you. What's not to adore?
I love you to the moon and back, my precious Griffy. Thank you for being my best boy.
Love, Mama
